There's a very popular saying in Spanish that goes, "Un clavo saca otro clavo." It literally means, "A nail drives out another nail." In other words, the new replaces the old. Generally, the new "nail" is better than the last, but that's not always the case. So in order to drive something or someone out of your life, there should be something or someone to fill in the space. I wonder if that means that I may get rid of the old one, but I will always end up nailed by the new one.
But what if the new nail is only a fantasy? Something that will inevitably evaporate with time? I wonder if I can manage not to feel empty when it's gone. So I finally get rid of some hurtful feelings I'd been hoarding, and I only succeed by turning my attention to what is most likely just a dream. If it comes true, I would be the happiest man on the planet, but if it doesn't, there would be an empty space where the old nail used to be.
I guess that explains why we are seldom satisfied and often seeking something, not knowing what it is we are looking for. It is that something to replace the things we want to get rid of, or the things that have been driven out by our fantasies. So what is the secret to finding real fulfillment?
As always, I have more questions than answers. But here's some food for thought: There's a difference between feeling full and feeling satisfied; and there's a difference between feeling empty and feeling light(er).
